Wednesday, December 15, 2021

Just before Christmas, 2021


Just Before Christmas

I was teetering on the edge--
The rootless feeling--
Falling into that shit.

Then she walked towards me
through the patio
from our bedroom casita,
Flowers flowing behind her, 
coming from her lips--little birds
with blessings, bringing joy 
And contentment to my heart.


Saturday, January 30, 2021

I Have It In My Heart

     Work in Progress

I have it in my heart
   for short guys
   who've made it big:

Martin Scorsese, Jon Stewart.
There are so many.
Although I kind of cringe when I think of Danny DeVito
--sorry.
Bruno Mars, though, especially.

And I'd actually add Tom Cruise to the short list 
   based only on the way he performed in Magnolia.

Of course, Robert Reich,
   but that's a different sort of thing.

El Chapo.



My first short hero from the movies was Alan Ladd.

Who reminds me of Ed Harris, who--
   as a bonus--also has
   that balding thing going for him.
   As do I--

Most would consider that
   I show fine from my face alone,
   But there are only so many times you can 
   read or hear in common culture the words 'small' and 'little'
   used to denigrating effect--and not be affected.
The examples are too many to name.

...I guess you could say the same thing-- 
   on the other side--about
   "Big Oaf" or "Big Dummy"

"That little--! You little punk!"

How often do you hear short, dark and handsome?

We're part of the understory 
Privy to the sunlight only on noblesse oblige...


On the plus side, I've still got all my teeth,
   Knees are good.  In pretty good shape all around.
   There's a lot to be thankful for. Flexible.

I came up with this crazy explanation 
   That explains why I'm here,
   encased in this particular body--
   Marked noticeably by its smallness.
   
Then pile on, at my age, especially:
   the shrinkage--
   That hardly seems fair...


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Anyway, the way that it goes is
   In a past life--
   That--admittedly--might be an issue for some--
   But anyway--

 In this circling play,
   Shakespeare's God made me a king, 
   Acclaimed by all women and men
But a king whose arrogance was his undoing. 
   
Back here, in our más or menos 
   consensual reality,
   my raison d'etre is


To learn humility
 
It's the humility that I lacked that I now here to practice--
   And it should be a dignified thing: Humility.

Anyway, enough of that.

Little. What's the difference between small and little?
   I hear "little" used as a pejorative--
   As in, "That little so-and-so".
Put "little" in front of any put-down word,
   and you've added ridicule to defamation.

But it's the "little" things in life that give it resonance. Meaning.



   

    




 







In the Time Remaining

In the Time Remaining

Let's inhabit again
that mood we were in-- 
When our skin moved the way it did, 
when the bed was our favorite place.

I don't understand your reticence.







Tuesday, January 12, 2021

Spy in the House of Love


Are you a spy in the House of Love,
Careful to erase evidence
   of your obsessive betrayals?
I am. 

Doing things I'm ashamed of--(why?)
There's no other term--
In the workshop, during quiet trips 
   to the bathroom, wherever. 
On the street,
Sitting at the table, 
In my mind...

Perhaps she is, too--
Both of us in the same household--
Behind our facades--
Unbeknownst to each other,
Awaiting mutual discovery.